Again

Four months of hiatus, here i am again.
nothing much actually, but it's just that a few things happened.


Firstly, betrayal of my pair work assignment partner.
this is a rather complicated thing, for if it's to be blamed, both of us were at fault.
I trust her too much on the celebrity selection, she's too lazy to find another one,
if the lecturer seeks for  fault, we both had our wrongs, if it ever gets to me, i had nothing to say.
however, she put all the blame to me, makingt me as the one who's been blamed. can't imagine a bitch would do that, should've known that it will come to this. i had learn the mistake with a heavy price, and i vow to not make it again.


Secondly, it's all about HER
This is some girl that i could've fall on to, but i didn't.
the reason is, because of distance, religion, and value.
Distance as far as the other side of the country, for me it's rather unbearable to conduct long distance relationship, especially if the girl is from places no nearer than i am , for the fact that if she ever gets away, it'll go down to nothing.

Not been prejudice on religion, for no one is different.
its's the result of been too obedient to certain religion that make her, disturbed.
I want someone that is comfortable with her own religion,
that it gives her spirit and life, not despair and agony.
Spent quite a time consulting her, it worked for her but not for me.

Life value is what sets a successful individual and failed person a part.
however, sometimes the term successful and failure is too vague to be explained.
a poor person can be successful, if he / she is doing hard to survive, yet living a free, happy and content lives.
a rich person can be a failure, if they didn't use their riches in a proper way, and living in feared lives.
that's what i learn about her.

in all, its'always the same thing around me and you. love itself, has no specific qualidfication to justify it.


Finally, all's well ends well.
This is what i had been hoped for, as the battle to survive is nearing it's end, no one would judge on my performance, regardless of applause, or critic. i could only pray to be a stronger man, for lives, are not easy.